This Year's Holiday

The winter's coming

Am I crushing on her again or breaking up?

The church bells are ringing

But I'm left here thinking on the street

One of my friends says

"You're wasting her life away"

It's a holiday in NYC

But I'm left here thinking in my room

Christmas is just one week away and I hear the sleigh bells ringing outside but I can't fit in this weather

"Best wishes for our new year"

You wrote me a letter and gave me a sweater

But something's not right inside my head

To live with empty dreams and anxiety of our future

I might kiss and tell on a holy lonely night

This year's holiday

I close the curtains

I love it when lights won't come in

With all the doors locked up tight so santa clause won't come in too

He doesn't give me what I want

All I want for Christmas is a little taste of hope and clarity

When the nights are too long

My stomach churns and I think of all the bad things I have done to her

"Best wishes for our new year"

You wrote me a letter and gave me a sweater

But something's not right inside my head

To live with empty dreams and anxiety of our future

Loose lips sink ships but I got nothing to say

Jessie, will you be there?

Next year's holiday

The Hudson river is heaving as the lights of the city are changing it's colors and that makes me think that have we changed in a better way?

The cheap common expressions I make in songs that I write and I can't shake this feeling deep inside of me

"Best wishes for our new year"

You wrote me a letter and gave me a sweater

But something's not right inside my head

To live with empty dreams and anxiety of our future

Best wishes for our new year

But don't say a prayer for me

I'll light up a candle for my dry heart

Jessie, am I with you?

This year's holiday